Tuesday, January 13, 2009

moment of panic

Ever make a decision that seems right at the time, and then totally freak out about it down the road? That was me today. Correction, that was me around 4am, when I woke up from a dream that had me questioning a choice, and how things would play out. Then I laid there for far too long thinking. I've had dreams like that before - the one where I attended my own wedding in black high top runners in a too-short dress, the one where I traded my first child for a kitten, the one where I had a massive milk let down in public (wait, that was a dream, right??).

In any case, I've had a day of wondering if I make smart choices, if I'm just dumb after all.

My husband, in his supportive wisdom offered me the following tidbit. Moses had moments like that, railed at God that he wasn't good enough...and God agreed with him. Yet, God also promised to be with Moses through it all.

I'm not sure if that reassured me or not. Let's just say I haven't spotted any burning bushes lately. Then again, it's still cold.

At least he hugged me before that. I think that redeemed the conversation. It's a good thing he's cute. :)

1 comment:

Mo the Mama said...

Po and I used to put a lot of emphasis on our dreams until we talked with Bruce Hindmarsh about dreams. The gist of it was basically that you need to test the dream against everything you know about God. Cause sometimes you dream what you dream because of the pizza you ate the night before : )